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Jun

Mercury in Cancer: Unsent Letters

Effective Dates: June 30th- July 15th, 2016

 

Helios  Helios’ Astrological Angle for Mercury in Cancer: “I love you but fuck off” -Helios

Yes, I’m quoting myself. I sent those same words to my father earlier today, and I meant both halves of that sentiment, in the same breath. I do love my dad, inasmuch as I am capable. He is not a perfect man, but he is a very intelligent man, and a very compassionate one (Aquarius, since I know you all are curious). He is also immovable in his idea of what is right, and what is good, and the way people should be treated. The main thing I carry from him are those high-minded ideals. That is all well and good, but over the course of this year we have frequently found ourselves at loggerheads over what is the best way to bring those ideals into reality. We both stick to our guns and refuse to back down for anyone, and are VERY vocal in making our stances known.

Now we have also let a lot slide with each other lately, because at the core there is love (lots of baggage and issues, but still love)- but earlier today he decided he was fed up with me over something (that was, to me) extremely minor. Little did he know, I already had a firestorm brewing in me, because I was hurt over him saying things that I took great offense to. He didn’t know this, because I decided to be a son first, and did not call him out on the issue; but rather just removed myself from the conversation so that the peace could be kept- but in doing so, I unwittingly caused the circumstances for the situation to come about (okay, so I unfollowed him on Facebook. Yes, this all started on social media. Yes I know it’s dumb. Bear with me, I am actually making a point) because of my silence. Unfortunately, he decided to express his hurt at me in a very puerile and snide way- I say this is unfortunate because I met him on that same level and unleashed the full force of my pettiness and shade at him. Now, I do not regret nor would I take back what was actually said, because that air needed clearing- what I regret is the manner which the situation occurred.

I bring this personal, family drama up because we are talking about Mercury in Cancer (Peanut Gallery: Are we? Here I thought we were listening to Helios’ eternal bitching!). You are going to be put into similar situations with those close to you. Other astrologers or lightworker’s might say something like “You must express your heart’s truth” but they neglect to inform you that shit is MESSY. Clearing the air causes wounds, and no one knows how to hurt you like those closest to you. I will tell you that you need to have conversations that matter, that you will need to call your loved ones on their shit, whether it is racist, sexist, elitist, homophobic, or advancing a political agenda when it is not the time to do so. Doing so will probably start a fight, because even though it is not exact anymore, the Cardinal Crisis is still a thing; But it is a fight worth having. If you allow things to proceed the way they always have, no one is truly respected. Do not bury your feelings, nor your ideas; but also try not to be cruel to those who you actually do love, even if you want to choke them out. You do not want to isolate yourself from those who will have your back when you need it. On that same token, if you are harboring snakes in your camp, then this transit will bring them out in droves. They will shed their skin and you will see them for what they really are.

At the end of the day, this transit is about Family, your tribe: You love them, but you have to tell them to eat a dick once in a while.

Artemis  Artemis’ Tarot Take for Mercury in Cancer:

“yes, I have feelings
and no, I’m not afraid of them
not even the shadowy ones
that you’d rather ignore
i gather them in
welcome them home
give them space to breathe
and light them on glorious fire
just to see
what might be illuminated
while they burn”
― Jeanette LeBlanc

Cards: King of Cups, 6 of Pentacles, 7 of Cups

Oh the things we would say if we could say them without the mess. Well, it looks like that mess is going to become inevitable. There are some great things about Mercury in Cancer. People who have this position in their natal charts make incredible listeners. This is definitely a good position for Mercury if one works in mental therapy, for it gives you great emotional insight. C.G. Jung had his Mercury in Cancer; which was evident in his tremendous intuition. It is almost frightening how emotionally perceptive Merc in Cancer is. I would even call it borderline psychic. What’s the other side of the coin? Well, the problem is, the crab is so fucking sensitive that a change in the wind can send them bawling. Did someone tell them that their idea was stupid? Merc in Cancer would probably cry, go in their safe place, and then come out days later with with passive aggressive bullshit.

My heart hurts today. It’s this tender hurt that pulsates with subtle feelings. Among a billion and one things that are happening that has lead to this heart aching, I recently experienced the loss of my grandmother (very Cancer representative), and my familial relations are rocky at best. One of my best friends is a Cancer; my sister. Discussing this loss in our family with someone much more emotionally open than myself has been quite the experience. I tend to bottle these things up and check on them years later when they are of incredible inconvenience and have caused more mental damage than they are worth (yeah, I’m very Aquarian). Emotional purges are necessary, and they will happen under this transit. If we let these things sit and stew, they drown us in the depths. Whether you like it or not, this is going to be a time of emotional vomit. I call it this because it’ll hit you, mid conversation, that you need to tell someone why their staunch, unmoving opinion is completely and utterly selfish. One thing Cancer knows all too well about is how the waves do not stop pummeling us. We need to take care of things immediately, and usually emotions are pesky little things that we save for later. Nuh uh, not during this transit. Oh dear gods, I am fucking terrified, but there is a catharsis to crying, screaming, and letting out all those icky things that settle at the bottom of your heart.

6 of Pentacles. A lot of people have been coming to me lately informing me that they are going through depressive episodes. You can already feel the Cancerean mood decending on us. There is nothing you can do about it; we will feel the intense emotions of those around us and we will be forced to talk about it. We will be forced to share. This could turn into a messy situation where you are bleeding your feelings all over someone, but trust me, these things need to come out. There is a deep gloom that can come to us because of this, but we must keep sharing those things that level the playing field with others. We must seek balance in sharing our inner worlds. There will be a big pull from your subconscious to retreat and become passive, because honestly, this is all going to get to be too much sometimes (especially with this new moon in Cancer coming, holy balls does it look emotionally painful).

Your visions and emotions are going to be taken to court. People will call you out. You will not be able to be the jolly King of Cups who casts aside all emotional turmoil. He has a way with words and a way with pushing away drama. Nope. We’re going to have to face it. You’re going to have to look people in the eyes and tell them what that beating, bloody mess in your chest wants to tell them. Don’t worry, darlings, once you purge all that bullshit from your heart, you will feel unbearably light and calm. It’s the initial cut and spilling of blood that hurts the most. It’s that initial drive of the sword deep into layers you thought didn’t exist that will make you cry out, but ridding yourself of these emotional ball and chains will allow you peace.

What’s our warning in this reading? 7 of Cups tells me that there will be those of you who sit on these things and never do them. I have plenty of unsent letters sitting in my inbox, waiting to see the light of day. Yeah, they are written. In fact, I spilled my guts and the entire contents of my heart writing them, but if they are not sent, they are merely an illusion of settling these issues. They may give me some emotional reprieve, but every time these people continue to hurt me in these ways specified in these unsent letters, the wound is opened once again. Because I really haven’t said anything. People need to hear things, even if it shatters the illusions that they have set before them. We need to inform others of OUR emotional reality, and listen whole heartedly to theirs. There can be no healing if the wound is not cleaned. It is time to do so, because living in subjective, introverted hell will only make the wound fester. This will be a time of high intuition, and like I said, it’s not like we have a choice anyway.

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