“Men have healed me. Men have wounded me. One man healed me by wounding me.” – Kate McGahan
Effective date: December 1st, 2016- July 1st 2017
Helios’ Astrological Angle on Chiron Direct– Hell is other people. At least, that’s what they tell us. In reality, Hell is when we are left alone with our selves; it can be the worst torture there is, and it is a tortured, exhausted people who meet this transit. Chiron Retrogrades usually tend to be rough, but this one seemed hell bent on watching us tear ourselves apart and ripping out all the good we had- something we took to with glee. So now our jailer comes into our cell and puts on the mask of our liberator- The sadist turned savior. Will you trust his intentions now, his manipulations forgotten so quickly? Or will you hold back your trust, even if he truly did have a greater purpose behind his machinations that is in your best interest?
This transit feels as though we have been asleep for months or years, like Rip Van Winkle, and we are just now waking up from the long dream. Now, after much struggle to determine what is real and what is fiction, we find ourselves solidly in reality- but how can we tell for sure? It sure feels real, but the dream was real enough to make us question its legitimacy as well. Is this only a convincing illusion, a clever ruse? Are you the man or the butterfly? To answer that, you need to figure out Chiron’s scheme for you- what he is doing and why. To survive his torture chamber you needed to make yourself numb, you cut out your own heart in order to survive– Now you have to put it back in and own up to what you have done to yourself. Worse, you have to move forward and there is no time to grieve over the loss of who you once were. As they say, there’s no rest for the wicked.
Luckily, we only have one more of these retrogrades to go before we reach the end of a fifty-year long journey- Yes, you heard me right: Chiron is almost done with his trip through Pisces! That alone is worth celebrating, but we still have the home stretch of Pisces to deal with, and it is going to be a doozy. The final degrees of Pisces will bring up every single challenge that we have overcome or failed throughout his trip through the cosmos, and we will have to do them all AGAIN, in one go. Ideally we should have learned enough to solidly trounce anything that comes up, but with the other forces in play here, anything could happen. This direct transit is even more crucial than that however, as this run is entirely focused on reminding you who you are and what you can do so that you can overcome the final challenge. You have forgotten so much while you were sleeping, and now is the time to remember. Your task is to recover this and stand in your own power, the power of YOUR self, so that you can truly release your burden and move into a future of your own design.
Artemis’ Tarot Take on Chiron Direct- Cards: Knight of Wands, 3 of Wands, 9 of Pentacles
Ugh, all this muck. How deep did you bury it? Your dread, that is. Dig dig dig, but it’ll still come up and the punishments will continue until you learn. The only reason these situations keep growing is because you let them. We must act with bravery. When we lack trust in our body, it begins to fail us. When we stomp on our chi and give up, making a scratch into a mortal wound, we essentially hand our environment our life. “I do not want to take care of this” is analogous to “I do not want to be here.” Just like if we ignore our physical wounds, they will lead to our death, if we ignore our psychological wounds, they will lead to the death of passion (fire suit).
We all have them, these fissures in our reflection that we attempt to mask with various glamouring techniques. We run away from any chance we receive to directly look at our wounds and examine them, which would naturally lead to our understanding of them. We fear to look at that which we do not understand, because, well, we have been burnt pretty fucking badly in the past. Do we not realize what we have learned from the experience of being burnt? We fear acting because it may lead to more hurt and pain; trading progress for temporary comfort. We fear asking for help because that would leave us vulnerable and exposed. How will we come back from the “shame” of having someone see us like that? We do not realize that shame comes from the false idea that perfection comes without trials and that there can be no understanding between two individuals about pain. So we trust no one to go past a certain point. We block people who could help us heal because we fear they will take that chance to hurt us even deeper than we have already been hurt. We end up handing out our own sentence to a prison cell of mind. Unfortunately for us, our non-action will lead to our demise anyway. The bravery of making a decision to trust is the decision that may save you.
The cards are telling me that the fire element is the way out of the current karmic wounds you may be dealing with. Fire cleanses; nothing can escape it. It strips everything down to ash, and all you need to ignite it is a bit of friction and a continuous flow of air. Breathe and go. It is the only way out – unbridled passion galloping toward an expansive vision. Yes, you may get burnt again, but remember that fire is in turn cleansing false beliefs inside of you if you are brave enough to continue looking at the thing that has “damaged” you. There is a lesson there… Look for it closely, as that which creates the wound also creates the salve.
During this transit we will be forced to act upon the very wounds we fear the most. I know, it’s demoralizing to realize that we have just cleared off the first layer of grime. But if you want to try to find peace, you must know how to find it in the midst of war. We will always be meeting a force of opposition in a world that manifests in the plural. Our challenge is to learn the necessity of the pain. Why was it necessary for you to be inflicted the way you were inflicted? How has it propelled you to heal the way you heal others? Retrograde Chiron season allowed you to see the patterns of your poisonous cycles. It’s now time to act on what you have learned with confidence. Don’t let a ghost called fear take away your solid ground because, in the end, it cannot do a damn thing to you. Everything moves in cycles. Everything has seasons, and we must learn that joy comes again. Even to places we thought would forever be shrouded in darkness. Root yourself so that you may emerge as a perennial.