“You can wet the rim of a glass and run your finger around the rim and it will make a sound. This is what I feel like: this sound of glass. I feel like the word shatter.” –Margaret Atwood
Effective Dates: June 6th – November 23rd 2017
Helios’ Astrological Angle on Neptune Retrograde– Here we go again, Heretics… Yes, it’s another Retrograde and this time, it’s personal… So, what can we expect from the planet of intangibility, metaphysics, and everything that transcends the mundane? Neptune is a planet of super-reality, and is our connection to universes beyond what we experience with our senses. Everything that is “real” is not in Neptune’s wheelhouse- Everything else is his domain. That means Neptune is in effect the most powerful planet that there is in our system. Neptune is the concept of “Dark Matter/Energy”, the idea that 95% of our universe is missing, or unobservable to us. Hell, we can only see 0.0035% of the Electromagnetic spectrum, and we’re not getting into the small range of sound that we can hear. In that very narrow range of the universe that we can experience and call “reality”, every planet fights for their slice of dominion– Neptune rules literally everything else. The experience of Neptune is so vast, deep and wide, you can lose yourself in it easier than anything; You can go power-mad on Pluto, slutmode it out with Venus and get a lucky streak with Jupiter; but Neptune you have to binge on.
Neptune has been letting you recover, giving it to us easy, but at the same time we have been feeling like there is something missing; Some crucial piece of you that is lost. Well, guess what you get to do now? Your mission is to both figure out what is missing (which you should have done with during Jupiter Retrograde) and restore yourself to full. Before you can recover your soul, you need to first address where you are. You must face your reality, and be brutally, scathingly honest with yourself. Once you face your reflection as you are now, then you can move forward. This is not the time to hide behind your illusions and walls. Right now, what you need is to hold up the mirror to yourself and see what is good and what needs to change. Approach your life as a surgeon, being willing to cut out any offending factors no matter what they might be.
Not all of the changes you need to make will be resolved quickly, so you must trust in the process. Sit with yourself, and allow yourself to dissolve into Neptune’s flow. Now you are not going to want to engage with the world at any level right now- You are afraid everyone can see just how damaged you are and smell the blood in the water. Yes, you have been hurt pretty bad, but you cannot retreat from everyone. No, you cannot completely heal yourself on your own, you need the help of others sometimes. No man is an island and all that… You are not a machine, you are conscious lightning trapped in rotting hamburger fueled by caffeine and anxiety. Neptune will help you become more than that, helping you transcend the sum of your parts.
Neptune Retrograde is commonly really rough. You typically feel like you are under a 5-month hangover, and with all the other Retrogrades that are STILL going on, it is easy for malaise and despondency to kick in. This is going to be another one of those Fake-It-Til-You-Make-It times. Even though you are lost, having no idea where you are going and what you are doing, you still have to make it look like you have it together. Understand though, none of us have any clue, so whatever you do don’t compare yourself to anyone who you feel might be ahead of you- this life isn’t a race, and the only person you should be in competition with is yourself. Make it a point that even if you fake it to the outside world, take steps to make your walk match your talk so that you don’t have to keep faking it.
Now, even though I talk about faking it, one thing that this Neptune Retrograde is going to do is make it impossible to hide behind the illusions we have so carefully crafted to protect ourselves. You will have to own up to your real self now. For some of you, this will be a difficult proposition, as you are so far out of touch with yourself that you no longer know who you are. This whole transit, the journey that you embark on now, will be a quest to find your Self again. Neptunian quests have no markers, no guideposts, and no clearly defined goals, but must be guided by the Heart. Be honest with yourself, and you will not get lost along the way. It will not be easy though- you will need to be strong, and resist the urge to fall apart under the onslaught of your own doubt and insecurity. Keep the faith, keep moving, and keep from being too hard on yourself; Let Neptune lead you back home.