“One of the most terrifying things I fear is not my potential, but how much regret I’ll die with should I never use it.” ― Craig D. Lounsbrough
Effective Dates: November 11th 2017- August 7th 2018
Helios on Lilith in Capricorn– You are weak. You are worthless. No one loves you and they never will. How could they? Look at you! Look at the mess you have become. You have taken all the gifts you were given, and you have squandered them. You have amounted to nothing, just like everyone always knew you would. Broken promises, broken hearts, missed shots and wasted potential; All of it is such a shame. You could have been great, but here we are. You are pathetic, and no one would miss you if you were gone.
These are some of the things that Lilith in Capricorn will tell you. I wish I could say that they are all lies, but you and I both know that they aren’t- They strike too close to home to be untrue. This transit will play on all of your worst fears, the harsh fluorescent light that exposes your worst flaws in a sickening high definition. You will find that you are your own harshest critic right now, and your negative self-talk will be absolutely devastating- After all, you know exactly where to strike to cause maximum damage to yourself. Harder still is the feeling that you are being judged, held up to an impossibly high standard that you could never reach in your wildest dreams. You will be afraid that you have no value.
This transit will take all of your worst fears and make them larger than life. All of a sudden, you lose your confidence, your hope, your will to live. You will doubt your own abilities and fear that you honestly don’t know what you are doing. This is a sign that you need to step back, and re-evaluate; Are you truly on the right path? Are you doing what you know you should be? If not, adjust NOW before it is too late- Do not allow your alleged progress to hold you to your path, it can be regained. It’s already an uphill climb to get where you want to be, so it might as well be a destination that you actually want to reach!
Under friendlier skies, this might be tolerable, just a slight malaise tinging our days sepia. Unfortunately, we are going into a harsh, cold winter, under skies laden down with Jupiter in Scorpio, and the looming shadow of Saturn in Capricorn. Consider this a warmup for Saturn in Capricorn. Lilith will be the one dredging up your shadow for Saturn to judge so that Jupiter can carry out an effective punishment for you. At the end of the day, these guys honestly do want you to be at your best, and for you to reach your potential– It’s unfortunate that you have resisted them for so long, and fought their efforts to help craft you into the best possible version of yourself. Don’t get me wrong, you have made some gains, but you could do more. This is motivational- They have tried the carrot, but now have to bring out the stick.
This transit will bring you down to the very depths of who you are. Lilith wants to see all of you, exposed, bleeding and raw. She will not be kind, but you should have nothing to hide from her, right? You should be willing to give up all of who you are to her. This is when you give up the toxic ideals that you have clung to for so long- afterwards you will emerge, remolded from the muck; with a new sense of purpose and a brand new personal code of ethics to live by. Think of this time as a session with a really extreme dominatrix- You paid for the session, now you are getting your money’s worth.
You can survive this, I promise.