“The deepest personal defeat suffered by human beings is constituted by the difference between what one was capable of becoming, and what one has, in fact, become“- Ashley Montagu
Effective Date: January 31st, 2018
Helios’ Astrological Angle on the Lunar Eclipse in Leo– I warned y’all this was coming, and that you wouldn’t be ready. I TOLD you that it would sneak up on you, and here we are. You are beaten down and exhausted, but the stars don’t care- They have a job to do, and what you want is not even on their radar. Sorry.
Gird your loins, it’s Eclipse Season.
The Sun, Moon, and Neptune– First off, I want to challenge you to think differently about these Eclipses, because they are different from what we might normally expect. If you read the other astrological talking heads, my money is on them all saying how this is an excellent time for healing and letting go of old ways… Well they say that every Full Moon and all they’ve been good so far for is to cause you to down two bottles of wine on a Tuesday evening and in bed by 6:30pm. That’s some true healing mojo right there.
Instead of trying to stitch together the parts of yourself that you see as broken, tattered and ripped, I want you to do nothing that would be thought of as “healing”. Nah, you don’t have time to sit on your ass and mope anymore- It’s time to get up and change. Anything that you cannot abide it is now up to you to make right. The Universe has had plenty of time to self-correct, and nothing has come of it. When are you going to get the message? Repeat after me: “If it’s meant to be, it’s up to me”. Make that your mantra and keep telling it to yourself until you believe it and everyone within earshot is sick of you.
While you’re at it, let’s drop this whiny defeatist attitude that you need “healing” once and for all, yeah? For the record, the parts of your Self that you are trying to hide with the facade are the parts everyone else loves about you; What we hate is the mask you cant leave the house without. Can you please drop the armor? Instead of trying to seal up the cracks and cover the scars, try to let your vulnerability shine through them. Wear your hurt proudly- We want to see your true colors!
Mercury, Mars, Saturn, Chiron, and Uranus– “Okay Helios”, I can hear you say “That’s a nice thought. Maybe I’ll even try it. Once. If I remember. But what’s this about change? What can I actually DO in my situation?” Great question and I’m so glad that I asked it for you- Turns out, quite a lot! What is in your purview is what you think, what you actually do, the rules by which you live your life and what you believe, and the greater goals of your life. No one can take those from you without a lot of powerful drugs and a lot more time than it’s worth, to be completely honest. See, your issue is that you’re not taking ownership of what is absolutely within your own control.
I want you to drop the phrase “I can’t” from your vocabulary. You’re not powerless, and you’re not broken. There is NOTHING WRONG WITH YOU. You are not a monster beyond forgiveness. Quit telling yourself otherwise, because you’ve started to believe it. What you need is to look in the mirror and open your heart to who you see staring back at you. Sit up straight, take a deep breath, and take your life back, one step at a time.
Venus, Jupiter, and Pluto– And then we get to the hard part: Actually putting this into action. Underlying this Eclipse is a bunch of ugly, hidden, chthonic emotions bubbling under the surface- Namely, fear. See, you have steeped in the cocktail of fear, paranoia, and distrust for so long that you refuse to believe that anyone has anything but malice in their hearts for you. This is you projecting your distrust and hatred for those who hurt you on the innocent. See, the thing is that when I warned you about 6 months ago all those times not to hermit yourself away no matter how tempting it was, I was worried that this exact situation would play out. Now you are “safe” behind your walls, alone where no one can ever get to you again. Trouble is, it’s no good to have just yourself for company- you forget how to deal with people and end up depersonalizing when the challenge is self-actualization.
Now, I’m not telling you to forget the pain you have endured… actually, yeah I kind of am. If you want to progress, you have to drop all of the pain you carry- all of the shame, loss, regret, and agony; all the obligation and secrecy. Why are you clinging to it? What promises are you keeping, and to who? Do you even remember anymore? You have given enough of yourself and taken your burden as far as it needs to go- it’s time to cut the cords and drop it, unceremoniously by the side of the road. I know, you have clung to it for so long, you can’t bear to let it go, or to leave the safety of your personal castle and its impregnable walls. Well, your back is hunched and breaking, and your home has become a jail cell. Just let it go and stand up tall as you leave your prison.
Let it go and start living your life again. Please.