“But I know, somehow, that only when it is dark enough can you see the stars.” ―
Effective Date: December 22nd, 2018
Helios’ Astrological Angle on the Full Moon in Cancer– Bright Solstice, Heretics! Everything is awful, the government is shut down, we loom closer to war and recession daily, and we’re all too exhausted and overwhelmed to do anything about it (which only adds to the stress and exhaustion, of course). Oh, and we have some truly hellacious eclipses coming, so that’ll be fun. Seems a fitting topper to a truly awful year, don’t you think?
Yeah, I’m 100% done with this year. This one brought me senseless murder, overdoses, betrayal and just…. loss of everything I held dear, the structure I built my life upon. It dangled happiness in front of me and pulled it away at the last second like Charlie Brown getting fooled by Lucy for the trillionth time. I’d say that things will get better in 2019 but I honestly just don’t see it. Your boy is going THROUGH it, ladies and gentlemen- And I know y’all are too. Honestly, all that I have anymore is being able to help all of you gorgeous messes. I’m clinging to it.
The Sun, Moon, Chiron, and Uranus– So, enough of being maudlin- Take your grief and make it art, Helios. The darkest nights bring the darkest thoughts along with them, that’s for sure, and this is a true Dark Night of the Soul. It is the precursor to the upcoming Eclipses that will start off the next Solar Year. The question on everyone’s lips right now is “Yeah, everything is awful, sure- but what can we DO about it?” There is a real need for a plan, for something actionable right now. Everyone wants a new answer, a new mission, a reason for being. I’m sorry to say that there isn’t one to be had right now. The senseless IS the message: You are not supposed to know what to do now. Allow yourself to fall apart, and see what you can hang onto, because this is one of those times where every outdated thoughtform and paradigm NEEDS to fall away, like so many leaves at the end of autumn. You need to move, to dance, and to let everything that cant move with you to stay behind. Stop trying to control everything, it is not on you when something outside your dominion fails, even if it hurts. Only take responsibility for what is under your purview right now, nothing more.
What you crave is something to electrify you, to set your soul on fire. You might find that after the eclipses, but it isn’t on the menu today. First, you have to break. This Astro will break you harder than you’ve been broken before because NOTHING ELSE IS WORKING. The message isn’t getting through, and you’re teetering on the edge, unable to bring yourself out but clinging to the ledge to prevent the fall. Well, that isn’t sustainable, and if you won’t grab the lifeline offered to you, the stars will step on your hands. You need to wake up to the reality that you are in, and it isn’t pretty. Your coping mechanisms are killing you, and dulling your shine. In the words of the iconic Jennifer Lewis, “You sit in shit too long, it stops smelling. So come the fuck outta there.” THAT is the message of this Lunation, that you are caked in the smelliest shit imaginable, and everyone sees it but you. WAKE THE FUCK UP AND GET BACK TO THE MISSION.
Mercury, Venus, Jupiter, Saturn, and Neptune– Listen, this arrangement is just going to repeat what is said above. You’re tired. You’re over it. You don’t know what to do next. Well, what you do next is retreat, give yourself space to implode in peace and fall apart. Let yourself break right now. Allow it, don’t fight it. This is the ONLY way that you can get that divine inspiration, that new mission, and purpose. The light can only flow in through the cracks in our ego when it breaks. Holding the line is a losing battle. Please note that I am not saying give up, not that at all- I’m saying what you need to do is stop taking on all the pain of the world and everyone who comes your way- You are not the Messiah, it is not your mission to take on the sins of the world and then die horrifically, betrayed and alone. Stop acting like it. Just live your fucking life, be happy, and don’t be a dick. That’s all there is. Stop making yourself into a martyr.
Mars and Pluto– Speaking of martyrs, we get to the real root of this Lunation- Anger. Rage in the form of grief, sorrow, and impotence. You are sick of things being not your fault because not your fault means not within your control. You want agency, a say in how your life goes- and you have it! This is not one of those times where you are powerless to act, in fact, your way is clear to take any action you like! You are just trapped in the mindset where you are a slave to the whims of the Fates! Take that anger, and instead of turning on yourself, use it to change your surroundings, yourself, or your situation! You are not powerless, you have just surrendered your responsibility to yourself- and its time to reclaim the driver’s seat.
It’s okay not to be okay right now. Get through this however you can. I can’t promise brighter days on the other side of the tunnel, but I can promise that they will be different than this.
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