“It exasperated her to think that the dungeon in which she had languished for so many unhappy years had been unlocked all the time, and that the impulses she had so carefully struggled with and stifled for the sake of keeping well with society, were precisely those by which alone she could have come into any sort of sincere human contact.”
Effective Dates: August 27th- November 9th, 2019
Helios’ Astrological Angle on Pallas Athene in Scorpio– Loneliness. Isolation. Separation. All of us have experienced these emotions, and all of us struggle with them. Now we are going to have to explore the depths of the emotions they stir within us, thanks to Pallas Athene, Asteroid Goddess of battle strategy, wisdom, and skill descending into Scorpio, the sign of darkness, transformation, and deep emotions.
This transit is not a comfortable one- Athene is no stranger to fighting, but in these depths she cannot see her opponents, and they whisper from the shadows that they surround her. You will feel this yourself, with your doubts and fears overwhelming you and whispering that you are not good enough, that you aren’t worthy of achieving your goals. That you aren’t worthy of being loved, that no one cares whether you live or die. I will not lie to you and tell you that these days will be easy, or that you won’t break down and cry because of them, but I can’t lie to you and tell you that they aren’t coming. That is my job, to tell you the truth of the moment whether it is good news or not. These days will be filled with uncomfortable truths which must be faced, but also many despicable lies masquerading as such to lower your self-worth. Your job right now is to determine which is which. This will not be easy either.
To succeed with this transit, you will need almost superhuman levels of emotional self-awareness. With all of the rest of the cosmic crap coming out acting in concert to tear down all your walls and defenses WHILE this happens in the background, this is no easy task. You will need to face your vulnerability, sit with your uncomfortableness and then fully accept all of yourself, naked and unafraid- while at the same time rejecting any internalized expectations of you that are tearing you down while you try and fail to live up to them. To see where this will play out for you, and the specific challenges that you will personally face, grab your chart and go over the themes of whichever house Scorpio is in.
What you will need right now is to be honest with yourself. Radically so, but not to the extent where you need to be cruel to yourself. You will need self-love when you are confronted with you at your ugliest and most raw (at least to yourself. Remember that this is all on the internal landscape) and it’s so much easier to pile on the hate and cruelty to yourself than to be kind. Yet that is exactly what you need and will be the only way to succeed through this transit.
Can you stand alone, in the darkness, surrounded by all your worst fears and emotions, and not give in to your darkness? When it comes right down to it, are you finally ready to treat yourself with love and acceptance, rather than cruelty? Can you be courageous enough to be vulnerable? Are you finally ready to stand in the truth of your heart rather than listening to the agendas of others? Can you be honest with yourself and finally accept who you are?
These are the questions you will need to answer. Its time to descend into your darkness. Be brave, Heretics.