“It is strange how we hold on to the pieces of the past while we wait for our futures.” –
Effective Dates: February 24th- April 12th, 2020
Helios’ Astrological Angle on Eros in Pisces– Heretics, I know you are tired, overwhelmed, burnt out and frustrated right now. You feel lost, unbound from reality and have no idea how to get back to what you want. I would love to tell you that this transit will help you escape from that feeling, but unfortunately, it is one of the contributing factors to it- Eros, asteroid God of Passion, Sexuality, and Lust is lost in the doldrums of Pisces right now.
During this transit, you will feel aimless, worn out, and without direction. You feel disconnected from your deepest desires, and as such you feel like there is no point in living this life any further. Remember that this is a temporary transit, and this will pass into Eros in Aries, where we will feel more alive than ever. While Eros is well-placed in Pisces, this transit is a melancholy one. Eros in Pisces wants you to plumb the depths of passion and lose yourself in it, dissolving your identity and becoming so much more. This is easier said than done, and a lot of who you are doesn’t want to be dissolved so easily. This transit will enhance and reveal what you are holding on to that has outlived its purpose in your life.
Mercury Retrograde will cast a shadow on the first part of this transit, and this will cast you back into a deep nostalgia. You will find yourself wistfully remembering those in your life that have come before, and if you are in a relationship now this may cause friction, as you will unconsciously compare your current partner to your past ones. This is no easier for those who are single, as it will make the absence of someone to love you, see you and understand you hurt all the more. It will cause your vision to cloud, remembering the past more fondly yet making you miss what is right in front of you in the here and now.
There will be a pronounced desire for what you cannot have, what is out of reach or what you should not want. This includes those you have loved and lost or loved and hurt badly through your actions. You will find yourself obsessing over past failures in love and regrets that come with them. This is so that you can accept what you have done, where you are, and move on. You must remember that no matter how much your past hurts you, you don’t live there anymore. You are in this present moment. This is not a time to make drastic changes in your life, but to reflect and understand what has brought you here, along with your part in creating your present.
The hard part here is how much you are hurting. The pain is coming from a lack of self-acceptance. There is something that you are struggling with being, something you do not want to be a part of you or something you lack when you measure yourself up to others. You must take the time to see yourself clearly, in all of both your beauty and your ugliness. No more, no less. You cannot reject what you refuse to see in yourself. You must accept that it is part of you, and then you can make a conscious choice whether to become it or not. We are all different, have different paths and gifts. No one can succeed if they are holding another’s measuring stick to their life. You must define your best life for yourself, and that requires a knowledge of what you truly want, your desire- in short, your Passion, and that is where Eros comes in. It will be hard to find during this time, but be still within yourself. Don’t search for who you are, hold love in your heart and invite your passion back. Become a beacon, a lighthouse on the hill to bring yourself in from the cold and the dark.
Listen Heretics, love is a choice. It is one we must make every day. Start with loving yourself, first and foremost. This can only happen when you see yourself in the fullness of your flaws. Accept who you are, warts and all. Then forgive yourself, and then the true work of loving yourself can begin. Then and only then can you be ready to love another. Find yourself as you get lost in the flotsam and jetsam of this transit. Float back to love, and then you can heal, Heretics.